Tonight I unpack the suitcase.
The neatly folded clothes
go into neat little rows
in the drawer, where they belong.
They haven't been used.
No sand or dirt from some fancy vacation
no little stubs from a local train station
They just expectantly sat in our bag.
We thought we would be welcoming a new little life
So we prepared and we waited.
And the birth family... hesitated.
So we prayed and we were patient.
The wait was long and the fear was real
and then we knew the decision was no.
So I put clothes away, I've no where to go.
Now here I sit, with my unpacked suitcase.
